He wonders at others less fortunate

Have you ever wondered, how despite how hard, cruel and unfair life has been to them; people still find a way to be happy?

Yet us here in all our good fortunes, still find a way to be sad.

He wonders about the eternal promise

"Take my eyes for what I've seen, I will give my sight to you
You are free to choose whatever life to live or life to lose
Whatever god you know he knows you better than you believe
In your once and future grave you'll fall endlessly deceived"

- Bruce Dickinson, Starblind: Iron Maiden

This is most definitely going to be my most controversial post yet. Depending on who you are, you may just hate me endlessly for this post for which I apologize. Please do not be offended, I do not mean to offend anybodies religion. I simply want to express a view I have on many religious people and I do not want many of my friends to succumb to the same fate.

One may have guessed that this post is entirely about religion and a certain perspective I have on a part of it.

My personal religion isn't really important in this topic of conversation, what I can say is that I have grown up in a very strict muslim family. Years of my life have been wasted on islamic education and studying the principles and beliefs of the religion. I was to be pretty honest, highly indoctrinated until I came here to Canada and developed my own view point. If my parents were to read this post (as is a good possibility, I will probably be skinned alive :P )

How ever, despite my own religion or lack there of, I have no prejudice what so ever against others who have faith. I realize that through out history, religion has done many great things for man, I also realize that religion has held humanity back and prevented us from truly progressing. I realize that many human beings want a life with a purpose, as I do and a religion is a very common explanation to the meaninglessness of life.

How ever, it is the things we do for religion that truly saddens me. Religious belief in my opinion is a very selfish act. Consider, that the primary reason anyone believes in religion is because of the promise of heaven, because they believe that believing in and being faithful to their god will promise them an eternity of happiness. People help others not for the sake of the person they are helping, but rather to get brownie points with god and move closer to their own eternal happiness. Through out history, religious beliefs have prevented humanity from taking risks or doing anything that would risk an individuals own entry to heaven.

Now, I know that most of my religious friends and anyone reading this blog really aren't like this. I know that most religious people are in fact good people, I just hope they are for the right reasons. Many kids grow up learning that doing something bad will anger god, this has been a great tool throughout history for keeping mankind in check. But it is also a major limitation, where does this "bad" begin? Generally speaking, anything that god spoke out against, or even didn't mention in one of his many holy books is considered bad, humanity is limited by this severely.

I'm not going to get into too much detail about this, because it really isn't the topic of this blog post.


It truly truly saddens me to see these intelligent, smart and great people waste away their precious lives for potentially empty promises.

For so many people, religion becomes everything. Appease god in this short meaningless life of ours so that we may obtain the eternal promise of heaven. There are so many people that spend all of their time following religion in a way or another. An example would be a priest that gives up his entire life to live one restricted completely by religion. Throughout my life, I often see people who are so immersed in their belief of heaven that they limit their lives drastically. This goes for every single religion out there, imans in islam being another example. These smart people who could have better'd humanity in so many ways waste their chance away.

But for what? The promise of eternal happiness in heaven?

But what if my friend, what if that promise is not real? What if when we die, it is the end of our existence? What if we embrace that we only have one life, one life that can end at any one second. What if everything we have learned from childhood about religion is false? What if it was all just created by humans in order to control others? What if it's all lies, lies fabricated to give us our own purpose?

What if god does not exist?


Now most of my religious friends will have cringed so hard at that statement and closed the tab. They will probably never open this blog again.

We are scared to embrace this idea, because of religions device. We have been warned of an eternity spent in hell, burning endlessly if we do not embrace the existence of god. Fear is what has controlled mankind, fear of hell.


But just speculate my friends, if god does not exist.

All these people that spend their one and only life, worshiping and trying to appease a god that may not exist. Is it not a wasted life? The promise of heaven may just disappear the moment we die, is it not a wasted life then? A priest that spend his entire life with limitations, who died a virgin because that is what his god asked of him. Is his life not wasted if god does not exist?

Or a muslim extremist, that commits suicides in the name of a god that potentially does not exist? Is it not sad that another life is thrown away for a promise that will be broken? People that wear veils, repent for their sins believing that everything is okay no matter what they have done just because they may still get into heaven. People that refuse medicinal treatment for their dying child because they wait for gods miracle; people that murder "possessed" children.

What if it's all been wasted?

It truly and deeply saddens me to see so many human beings living their life without meaning. Simply going through the motions of religious belief because they believe that this life is only a transition into eternity. Because they believe that what they do for god in this life will reward them in the future. Obviously everyone is entitled to live their life accordingly to how they see fit. I just feel that in many cases like this, people are misguided and not really aware of every possibility.

Please don't misunderstand me, continue to worship god and do your religious things. I embrace the possibility that there is a god, that there is a heaven and a greater purpose for each of us.

But what I ask, is that my religious friends please please embrace the possibility that maybe, just maybe there is no god, that maybe the promise of heaven is not real.
Continue to practice your religion, but please embrace this possibility.

The reason, is that by embracing this possibility you allow yourself to live a life of fulfillment. You allow yourself to truly appreciate this life and live for the moment. You do not limit what you do in life, you do not live a life simply for heaven. You live.

And he steps once again into the realm of artistic creation

A few months ago, I made a post about my dreams of becoming a musician. I try to realize this dream every day and over the March break, I actually ended up recorded my second song. It's a rockish instrumental, what ever that accounts for.

Here it is:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VHCOMTEH0TI&feature=channel_video_title




Now, the quality in this song sucks. The recording tone is really bad, and this mostly due to how bad my equipment is. My equipment also caused a lot of recording lag thus giving me a very very hard time. That's why it's slightly out of time in a few spots, sorry about that.

How ever, this is just a demo and I plan to re record this some day with proper recording equipment instead of a rough improvised set up.


Composing this song was a delight for me, it took ages! There were so many different musical themes and various techniques I wanted to incorporate in it and it took a lot of trial and error with these. I made many nice melodies that just weren't right and at a few points I feel like I tried too hard to incorporate certain ideas that it could have done without. All in all though, I am pretty proud of what I accomplished with this song.

I know that it is no perfect creation for any one even remotely musically talented, but for me this was a massive step, I hope my faithful and much appreciated blog readers are able to appreciate this song, sorry if it has wasted your time if you don't.

And he looks down the long and winding path ahead

This post might be a bit depressing, it's really not meant to be discouraging to anyone who might actually be reading it. I know it sounds like it, but I hope it comes off more as a warning and a big caution sign. A way of saying that we need to work hard to get far, that's my message here, don't take it the wrong way. Sorry about how badly written it is.



Every day I read scientific articles about some crazy new invention or new medicine that has the potential to cure this or that. And every day upon reading this, I sigh in a sort of despair. The complications behind these discoveries are immense. Mankind has progressed so far that I can't possibly ever imagine learning so much that I would be ever able to create these amazing things/ inventions.

The amount of science, knowledge and immense hard work that would go into making a nano bot that can pierce a Bacterias membrane and destroy it from within thus not allowing bacterial resistance to build up as it is not chemically based is crazy. Think about everything we know at our age right now and multiply that exponentially and then take into account the massive progressions in science that would have happened by the time we grow up.

I read these articles and I just want to give up, there is no way that I can possibly achieve such results or greatness, ever. But then I think to my self that none of these achievements are made by a single human being but rather a collaboration of great minds. That these great minds have each specialized in that one discovery for months, years until they have learnt everything there is to know about it. Until after so much hard work, finally they have made a break through.

And then I think about every one else. Everyone that is working so hard and diligently on their own thing, but science or what ever their field may be is not in their favor. These people who I will never know or read about simply because they failed to produce any thing overtly significant, then I realize that this is the majority of the population in the developed world.

I made that entire thing sort of scientifically applied, but it really applies to every field. Every day I read about 14 year olds who've come up with these great entrepreneur ideas and even have their investors and everything. I read about some crazy musical prodigy who at 8 is easily breezing through Mozart pieces. The entire time, I just sit there and think about how pathetic I am in the over all picture.

I sit there, and I think about how long the path is ahead of me, the world has become so competitive that to be good, you have to be damn good. I often just sit and want to give up, to give up this hard competitive life, where I will spent my entire existence competing with others just so that I can compete with others just so that I can feed my self. This is survival of the fittest, or rather, the smartest. I don't mean this in a suicidal way, rather I mean I just want to give up trying to be successful, just embrace something much more lowly and maybe more enjoyable? But my pride won't let me.


I'm one who often wants to believe in the perfect world that poets, revolutionaries and story writers talk about. The world where hard work is met with rewards, where people are not judged for their appearance, where people are simply not judged at all.

But the harsh reality as I have found out the harder way, is that you are being judged. Everything we do, every step we take we are judged by other human beings. In return, we're always judging others. If we want to be successful in life, it is crucial to be aware of others.

I would love it if the world was such that I could wake up and come to school (or work in the future) with my bed hair and in my messy clothes. But we all know I can't. If I do, I am judged negatively, it is not representative of my character or who I am to those who know me. But everyone ends up producing negative thoughts, negative judgments that add up to create an over all picture of us which is spread farther through gossip and stuff.

Instead I have to put on a facade which does not represent who I am, instead it represents who I want everyone to think I am. I want to give a good impression. Personally, I would have liked it if my personality gave off the good impression and not my appearance, but that's just the way of the world. The harsh world.

All the hard work we do may never be enough if we are not connected, if we are not able to socially interact with the right people, if we are not at the right place at the right time. Despite what our reputation may become, we will be cheated on, we will be taken advantage of, we will be deceived by others. We will be used as a tool, we will feel that we are not reaching our true potential, we will eventually die.

Those of us who make it far in the ladder will end up being the ones who use others, but even then they will suffer at the hands of selfish mankind.

What will it take to get far in life? To die a success and not a number? Who knows? But the path ahead of us is long and hard. There will be many obstacles, but we will live on. We will be happy for those tiny moments where we are with the people who truly care. The people who know us beyond the facade that hides every person. We will cherish these moments in between the moments of despair and depravity that are bound to come as well.

One thing I do know, is that we cannot give up. Not for the sake of humanity, our families or our friends, but for our own sake.